What kind of mom would I be!?

Last night I was up until after 2 am making blankies for my Pre-K and K-5 kids to take to school. They must have a soft snuggly blankie for resting time! Why I didn't decide this weeks ago, I don't know. But now they have the sweetest, softest blankies in the whole school. I am pretty happy with the way they turned out. And of course Little Girl had to have bows for her new school clothes (which Supermom helped me with, of course). I know that this isn't really about the blankies or the bows. It's really about my need to feel that I still control a piece of my kids' time at school, a need to know that we are still connected and a hope that maybe they will think of me at some point during the day. Silly, I know. But they couldn't possibly be happy or comfortable or secure without me (leave me to my fantasy). Without their blankets and their homemade lunches. I've been so excited about this time that I will have to myself. I still am. But I am also sad that both my babies are big school kids now. I'll probably be pretty much over this by next week. I'll be starting my classes and my work. I'll get busy with homeroom mom stuff and yoga and I'll be fine. But today, this first day of school, has been a long hard day.