Paradise My Eye

No free Wifi ...on the whole island! You know I would've blogged everyday if I could have (hahaha).

It really was paradise! Everything was perfect and beautiful. I got to see Daddyman.

Below are some pictures of the sunrise. We got up at 4:30 that morning and walked down the beach toward Diamondhead (the big volcanic looking mountain) and waited for the sun to rise. It was even more beautiful in person.



Here is the beach behind our hotel:



Here are pictures of the sunset taken from our balcony:



And here is us having fun:


Coming home was very difficult. I almost called Mom and had her put the kids on a plane. I regretted not doing that immediately upon arrival. When my plane landed here it was snowing. The couple sitting behind me was also returning from Hawaii and they started yelling, "Turn around, take us back! We don't want to stay here!" I joined in.

Leaving was really more difficult because I wasn't taking him with me. I was really doing alright, trying to keep in mind that it is almost over. He'll be home soon (it's all relative), yeah? When I got to the departure gate the lady who took my ticket said, "You don't look like you want to go," and I started crying/wailing and said, "I don't want to go!" It was terrible. I'll give you the short story... I cried a lot and the world continued to exist and time continued to pass.

I really like that guy a lot. I forgot how tall he is. Most of my time spent with males is with males about my height. When I hugged him I said, "You're so tall! I forgot how tall you are." It was pretty funny. I also forgot about some of the little things he does to take care of me and make me feel special. He is so wonderful. I think it was easier to get through everyday without being sad when I had forgotten a lot of the wonderful things about him. I am really sad and missing him tonight.

But time will pass quickly and he'll be home.

...And look at that sunset!

Thanks guys!

I just wanted to say how happy I am and how thankful I am to not be depressed. I had an hour to kill between taking kids to school and meeting Supermom for coffee and I didn't take a nap. I chose to do laundry and take out trash instead of sleep, which is what I would normally do this time of year. Productivity!! That's when I realized that I wasn't depressed. I haven't been in a really long time and I have been thinking about that a lot lately. I thought a couple of days ago that I might be slipping back into it. I'm about to go to Hawaii to see Daddyman! I know I have nothing to be sad about, but I still get that way sometimes. The last time I can remember feeling really terrible (bad enough to be worried about it) was the middle of October. The holidays were a little sad but I wasn't so depressed that I just wanted to sleep all day or die or anything like that. When the weather gets bad I usually go through "funks" about a week or two long every couple of weeks and, so far, this winter hasn't been too bad. I just want to thank God and all of my friends and family that have been so encouraging and supportive. Without all these people around to love me and take care of me I'm sure this would've been the worst winter yet. I love you guys!